Project New Year – Day 54, 55, and 56 – Ryan Out

This may not be the post you were expecting to see from me, but here it goes. Seems to be a trend that I don’t blog on the weekends. Lots of stuff happens on the weekends and I just don’t seem to get to it. This weekend it has been especially tough to swallow. Friday I was thankfully busy with the kids and their school activities. They are so awesome! Since I had a Time Trial on Saturday the kids stayed with my parents. My parents and the kids always seem to enjoy their time together. I had some conditioning to take care of, so it all worked out. The time trial went well. Somehow I set a personal best even though I hadn’t eaten anything but Shakeology since Thursday night (2 Shakes on Friday and one Saturday morning before the race). Emotionally I am a wreck. Financially I am nonexistent. But physically somehow I am enduring even though I know at some point if I keep going like this, surely that will fail as well. Even though it may not seem like it on the surface or through my Facebook feed, I have been avoiding something for a while. I have not been taking care of me and there is nothing of me left to give. I am tapped out. I am sorry if I am letting anyone down but I need to stop this charade. I am not happy. I am not doing well.

And I am done putting on that facade. I had every intention of taking this thing through 120 Days and I may very well complete it, but if I do, I am going to do it for me and no one else as it should be. Life is hard. Being a dad is hard. Being a good ex-husband is hard. Being a significant-other is hard. Success is hard. Getting in shape is hard. Staying in shape is hard. Eating healthy is hard. Being accountable is hard. If you can do it and you really want it, anything is possible. But if you don’t take care of yourself and do the things you need to do to provide a stable foundation for yourself and for the people you love and care about, it can all come crumbling down when the balance gets too far off. Unfortunately, sometimes that crash comes a bit too late and everything you have worked for is suddenly gone or just out of reach. I guess that is where I am right now. Starting over from the beginning.

I apologize to everyone I have let down over the past few years. I thought I was doing what I needed to be doing but apparently that was not the case. I don’t blame any of you for jumping ship, not doing the things I may have asked you to do, or even not wanting to be involved in what I was so excited about sharing with you. I get it. I mean the stuff I do really does work. Health and Fitness wise I have never been in better shape. Mentally and Financially I was never ready to let it work as it has worked for so many of my friends and mentors. And that is where I have failed so many of the people who were closest to me. I am somewhere underneath all of the rubble and it is time to start digging my way out.

I am going to take some time away. Not exactly sure what that means yet, but it is my intention to come back strong and ready to help those people that are ready to accept my help and do what it takes to get to where they want to be. I am not giving up. I know it is possible. We just have to be ready to make it happen for ourselves without any reservations. So for now this is my last blog post. I wish you all the Happiest of Holidays and a Wonderful New Year! I hope to see you on the other side……good journey!

Friday, November 21, 2014 – Weigh-in: 173
P90X2 X2 Shoulders + Arms and X2 Ab Ripper and X2 Yoga
Saturday, November 22, 2014 – Weigh-in: 170
12.9 Mile Time Trial and Foam Rolling Recovery
Sunday, November 23, 2014 – Weigh-in: 168
P90X2 X2 Recovery + Mobility

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Train for Success!

So often I post solely about my family or triathlon training. And while these are the most important things in my life, something else that is very important and dear to me is being a Beachbody Coach. Helping people set fitness and nutritional goals and working with them to achieve them is so rewarding. Not much feels better than seeing the smile on someone’s face when the tell me they have finished a program, fit into an old pair of jeans, or finally were able to do ten real pushups without having to kneel. It’s pretty powerful stuff!

Here I am in Las Vegas for a third year. I am spending time with the Beachbody family, going to motivating events, attending training sessions, and learning how to be a better coach for you all. There are so many new and exciting things going on here in Beachbody and I cant wait to put them to work for you!

Well thats it for now but stay tuned! I’ll be sharing more over the next couple of days!


Just wanted you all to know that I am taking a week off of P90X3. IJjust arrived in Whistler, BC for a 6 day ski trip with a great group of Beachbody Coaches. This week will be full of priceless moments that will help me be a better coach, period. I cant wait to get back and work with people who want to make a positive change I need their lives! If you would like to see whats going on, please follow Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter at #WhistlerRaid2014. I’ll be posting a few more times during the trip!

Monday was a great training day! Today wasn’t bad either!

Despite the fact that the AC at my house is a bit on the fritz, the temperature wasn’t too bad though, so I did my Monday P90X2 Chest + Back + Balance.  After that, I jumped on my bike and rode a quick 7 miles.  If that wasn’t enough, I decided to go to the Gym and get in a quick 1000 meter swim as well.  The workout was a mini-triathlon of sorts.  High energy and quick output tempo.  I am excited to get back into this type of training!  Only 1 month until my triathlon comeback so I need to make everyday count!

Today I had Plyocide which, if you have been following, is all about legs, jumping, and cardio. Crazy get your heart pounding type of a workout.  I had to run to a meeting to discuss my high school graduating class 20th reunion meeting.  Let me tell you, trying to take a shower directly after doing Plyocide is an exercise in futility.  Really no point, because I can guarantee you, without a proper cool down, you are going to keep sweating for at least 25 minutes….no joke!  So I got the meeting at Chuy’s and was starving, so I ordered and ate a tri-tip salad.  The salad was pretty good!  Either that or I was just hungry.  At least the tri-tip was good.  The meeting got out around 6:30 and I said to my friends, “looks there is still enough sunlight out to get a ride in.  So I raced home and geared up for a quick ride!  Ended up pounding out 10 miles at what I thought felt like a good click.  Then I got home and hit my pool for a nice cool down.  That sure felt good on such a warm day!

A new site that my friend Jed turned me on to is .  This is a cool site where I have started to track my rides and eventually I might track my runs as well.  Take a look.  Its free and easy to use!

Tomorrow is my Recovery + Mobility Day so I’ll probably be doing Yoga early and maybe a slow swim in the afternoon.  Gotta stay active but let some of the muscles rest.  Kind of beat them up the last 2 days!

Tom Petty said it best, “The Waiting is the Hardest Part”

I finished my Certification written test and practical this past Sunday and still no word from Corporate on whether or not I passed. I am pretty sure I passed, but I think Tom Petty said it best, “The Waiting is the Hardest Part”.  I think the best thing about the certification program was learning the slight changes to some of the exercises in the workouts.  These changes help the P90X regiment become more current in it’s teaching and will reduce the frequency of injuries.  If you are interested in becoming P90X Certified, go to|Complete%20P90X%20Certification%20Program they have all the dates and locations available there!

Have a wonderful day!