Project New Year – Day 54, 55, and 56 – Ryan Out

This may not be the post you were expecting to see from me, but here it goes. Seems to be a trend that I don’t blog on the weekends. Lots of stuff happens on the weekends and I just don’t seem to get to it. This weekend it has been especially tough to swallow. Friday I was thankfully busy with the kids and their school activities. They are so awesome! Since I had a Time Trial on Saturday the kids stayed with my parents. My parents and the kids always seem to enjoy their time together. I had some conditioning to take care of, so it all worked out. The time trial went well. Somehow I set a personal best even though I hadn’t eaten anything but Shakeology since Thursday night (2 Shakes on Friday and one Saturday morning before the race). Emotionally I am a wreck. Financially I am nonexistent. But physically somehow I am enduring even though I know at some point if I keep going like this, surely that will fail as well. Even though it may not seem like it on the surface or through my Facebook feed, I have been avoiding something for a while. I have not been taking care of me and there is nothing of me left to give. I am tapped out. I am sorry if I am letting anyone down but I need to stop this charade. I am not happy. I am not doing well.

And I am done putting on that facade. I had every intention of taking this thing through 120 Days and I may very well complete it, but if I do, I am going to do it for me and no one else as it should be. Life is hard. Being a dad is hard. Being a good ex-husband is hard. Being a significant-other is hard. Success is hard. Getting in shape is hard. Staying in shape is hard. Eating healthy is hard. Being accountable is hard. If you can do it and you really want it, anything is possible. But if you don’t take care of yourself and do the things you need to do to provide a stable foundation for yourself and for the people you love and care about, it can all come crumbling down when the balance gets too far off. Unfortunately, sometimes that crash comes a bit too late and everything you have worked for is suddenly gone or just out of reach. I guess that is where I am right now. Starting over from the beginning.

I apologize to everyone I have let down over the past few years. I thought I was doing what I needed to be doing but apparently that was not the case. I don’t blame any of you for jumping ship, not doing the things I may have asked you to do, or even not wanting to be involved in what I was so excited about sharing with you. I get it. I mean the stuff I do really does work. Health and Fitness wise I have never been in better shape. Mentally and Financially I was never ready to let it work as it has worked for so many of my friends and mentors. And that is where I have failed so many of the people who were closest to me. I am somewhere underneath all of the rubble and it is time to start digging my way out.

I am going to take some time away. Not exactly sure what that means yet, but it is my intention to come back strong and ready to help those people that are ready to accept my help and do what it takes to get to where they want to be. I am not giving up. I know it is possible. We just have to be ready to make it happen for ourselves without any reservations. So for now this is my last blog post. I wish you all the Happiest of Holidays and a Wonderful New Year! I hope to see you on the other side……good journey!

Training:
Friday, November 21, 2014 – Weigh-in: 173
P90X2 X2 Shoulders + Arms and X2 Ab Ripper and X2 Yoga
Saturday, November 22, 2014 – Weigh-in: 170
12.9 Mile Time Trial and Foam Rolling Recovery
Sunday, November 23, 2014 – Weigh-in: 168
P90X2 X2 Recovery + Mobility

Supplements:
ShakeologyBeachbody WheyBeachbody Fuel ShotSlimming FormulaCordastraEnergy and Endurance FormulaP90X Results & Recovery Formula

Project New Year – Day 26 – P90X2 Triathlon Training

Friday, October 24, 2014
Got it in today. Nothing pretty but it will do. Substituted P90X3 Yoga for X2 Yoga. X3 Yoga is only 30 minutes. But the point is I pushed play today and tomorrow is another chance to get after it! So I did a little carbo-loading for some mileage tomorrow on the FalcoV!

Morning Weigh-in: 173
Breakfast: Chocolate Shakeology with Beachbody Vanilla Whey2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra, and Coffee
Lunch: Turkey with Avocado on Wheat
Workout: P90X3 Yoga in lieu of P90X2 Yoga
Dinner: Pepperoni Pizza, Hot Wings, and Potato Wedges 
Snack:
 4 Small White Chocolate and Macadamia Nut Cookies and Vanilla Shakeology with Beachbody Vanilla Whey

Two Years. Too Long.

I had a feeling I wasn’t going to like the news I was going to get today regarding my neck and my back. Everything feels off and the nausea from the headaches has been getting worse. The tightness in my back wont release even with foam rolling. It is as if my muscles have finally revolted against my skeletal system and said we are tired of holding you together! Well here is the result of my x-rays:
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Looks like waiting two years to address the issue was too long.

Time to put humpty-dumpty back together again in time for Ironman Lake Tahoe! Looking forward to getting back into the groove with the P90X Library (P90X, P90X2, and P90X3) too!

 

Morning Weigh-in:  168
Breakfast: 2 – Activit, 2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra, and Chocolate Vegan Shakeology with Vanilla Whey and Cinnamon
Lunch: Salad with Chicken
Dinner: 4 Fish Tacos with Cilantro, Pico De Gallo, Chipotle Sauce, and Tapatio

Ended the evening with a severe migraine and productive nausea. 🙁 Dang. And those tacos were excellent. What a waste. :-\

School’s Out Taper

Geez! It’s been almost a week since my last post. Well to be honest, its been about a week since I have put in a real workout too. I have wanted to work out and even made plans to work out, yet the plans simply have not come to fruition. I have the best intentions. I want to ride my Falco V. I want to run on the open trails. I want to swim endlessly on my Bowswim. But none of that has happened. I’ll tell you what has happened though. The kids have gotten out of school. I have spent everyday since Friday spending time with them one way or another. Birthday Party Slide Fun, Pool Fun, Playing Video Games, Snuggling, Seeing Maleficent, and Pizza. Really, it has been awesome! And all things being considered, I probably needed to take this little break anyways. Call it a School’s Out Taper!

Pool - Schools Out

 

Seriously though, I have been favoring my left side for a few months now. I figure that I don’t stretch enough. I took too much time off after last the 2013 Tri Season and gained about 16 lbs of ice cream, candy, and pastries. I must have pushed too hard too soon to drop that weight before the 2014 Season. Now I am in the season and I keep having to start and stop to avoid getting injured. Not the way I was expecting this season to go but I am hoping that these past few days off will allow for some healing. Now I am looking forward to some P90X3 Yoga and a good night’s sleep tonight. Gotta work on that flexibility!

Tony and the Kids

This past weekend, I’m not going to lie, was pretty freaking amazing. My parents, kids, and I, along with a huge group of friends, colleagues, and fellow health and fitness enthusiasts, spent our Saturday at Cal State University of Bakersfield with Tony Horton. I think my kids, 7 years and 5 years old may have enjoyed it more than me! They have seen Tony on the TV screen over the past few years with my P90X, X2, and X3. They even have their own Tony and the Kids workout. My parents got in on the fun too! They have been working with Tony and the Folks and love it too! 20140517_135800 IMG_20140518_095427 Beyond the physical workout we all got to enjoy, the messages that Tony had to share I felt were more what I needed to hear. Especially when it comes to nutrition. I know that I let my physical activities give me an excuse to eat whatever I want over the past year. The problem is I know that eating fatty, salty, sugary, fried, foods isn’t good for me, but what is more important is that it is not properly fueling my body based on it’s demand. How can I expect to continually get better as an athlete if I am not fueling the body optimally, right? In fact, I have actually been setting myself up for injury. Luckily, the supplements I take have been carrying me through these moments of nutritional weakness. However with the addition of the 2014 Ironman Lake Tahoe goal, the supplements and a 60% / Clean 40% Dirty Eating rule just isn’t going to cut it. I can’t afford to get injured more than I already am hindered by this nagging left side tightness (which I am addressing with a Spring Stretch Challenge Group on Facebook). Flexibility is a key component of fitness. Flexible is something that I have never been. I know that it is going to be a painful journey, but I need to be flexible and know that it will open up a whole other level of fitness and health. Sunday I spent the day with the kids swimming and playing games. Kind of a Recovery Day of sorts. Much needed. Met the new puppy! IMG_20140518_115622 Today was a good day all around. Davis and I spent a little time in the morning together. I got in a quick swim, spent lunch with Addison at her classroom birthday party, got in some time at the office, hit the bike trail for a hot and windy ride, dinner with the girls, and a dog walk. Looks like the puppy is staying. The girls named her Scout after Scout in To Kill A Mockingbird, after briefly being named, Ginger, Bella, Lola, Sasha, and maybe a few others. The remainder of this week I will be focusing on stretching, eating better, and getting better sleep…oh yes…and riding my Falco V! Group Race/Ride tomorrow night and a Time Trial this weekend!

Triathlon Training Log – May 17-19, 2014

Saturday, May 17, 2014
Morning Weigh-in:
 171
Breakfast:  3 – AcidCheck Caplets, 2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra2 –  Vector450, and Chocolate Shakeology
Snack:
Protein Bar, PowerBar
Lunch:
 Chicken Terriyaki, Noodles
Workout: 30 Mins Ultimate Warrior with Tony Horton
Dinner: Pepperoni pizza and Potato Wedges
Snack: Ice Cream Sandwiches and Popcorn

Sunday, May 18, 2014
Morning Weigh-in:
 173
Breakfast:  3 – AcidCheck Caplets, 2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra2 –  Vector450, and Chocolate Shakeology
Lunch: Turkey Sandwich and Potato Chips
Workout: 5 Mins on BOWSWIM
Dinner: Penne Pasta with Chicken and Broccoli in an Alfredo Sauce
Snack: Bag of Popcorn and a Lime Popsicle

Monday, May 19, 2014
Morning Weigh-in:
 172
Breakfast: 3 – AcidCheck Caplets2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra2 –  Vector450, and Chocolate Shakeology
Workout:
Lunch: Pizza, 2 Cupcakes
Pre-Workout: Energy and Endurance Formula
Workout: Cycling 18.7 Miles added AcidCheck Granules and Pink Himalayan Salt to Water
Post-Workout:
 P90X Results & Recovery Formula
Dinner: Steak Fajitas and Spanish Rice, 1/2 Pulled Pork Sandwich
Dessert: Bag of Popcorn and a Lime Popsicle
Snack: Turkey Sandwich

Find the Triumph in Every Failure

If I had followed the calendar and not taken any breaks from my P90X3 schedule, I would have finished the program by now. So yeah I made it most of the 90 days this time but I definitely did not follow the regiment as suggested. But please don’t take my not completing a predetermined schedule as a total failure. Yes if my main goal were to lose 40 pounds and go “from Flab to Fab” in 90 days, I am convinced that this program would have done an amazing job all while only working out 30 minutes a day, but that wasn’t my goal. So here I am reflecting on my choice to stop the program when I did and focus on the good that came from this program and view it as a personal triumph. My goal for this new program was to (1) become familiar with the product so that I could help other people who were going through it too, (2) work on my upper body strength to become a better swimmer for the 2014 season, and (3) to lose a winter layer of cushion and be at race weight for the start of the season. Pretty basic goals right?

So here I am today, sitting around 170 lbs, leaned out, and stronger than ever. So yes, what some would consider a Failure in one respect, I am seeing as a Triumph. Everyone has different goals in their life. When you embark on a personal journey, whether it be fitness, professional, or anything, its important to state your goals and make daily efforts towards their completion. And what do you do when achieve your goals? Yep, set new goals and get back to work! Brilliant!

My new goal is somewhat of an audacious one. I decided to raise money for Zerocancer.org and complete the 2014 Ironman Lake Tahoe! This is my major goal for this year. In preparation for this monumental event, I am pulling out all of the stops. As I basically discussed in Water Break?, starting Monday April 7th, I am dusting off my Focus T25 program (in lieu of P90X3 – I feel T25 is better suited for help with running), I’ll also be adding Tri-Core on the Evo Fitness Bike to the mix for cycling, and using the Bowswim for the majority of my swim training. To round out this multi-faceted training schedule, I’ll be tackling a fairly prolific racing season as a sponsored triathlete for Falco Bike while maintaining to be a faithful advocate for the following supplements: ActivitSlimming Formula, CordastraShakeologyVector450, and AcidCheck.

What are your goals?

Swimming with the Kids!

P90X3 Day 69 of 90 – March 21, 2014

Weigh-in: 172
Breakfast: 2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra3 –  Vector450, and Vanilla Shakeology
Lunch: Granola Bar
Dinner: Rotini Pasta Primavera with Breaded Chicken
Snack: Popcorn, Honey Bunches of Oats with Almond Milk, Granola Bar

Dropped weight a bit last night after yesterday fasted cycling and caloric deficit. Loved having those morning Abs! However, I missed a workout today. I haven’t been so good with the P90X3 workouts this month. Not the right way to start out the first day training for the 2014 Ironman Lake Tahoe but I had fun with my kids so that is all that matters, right? I was able to be active with the kids though which is good. We spent some time in the pool and played with the BowSwim. Hoping I’ll be able to get into the pool tomorrow and get in some swimming time again 🙂

On another note and possibly a reoccuring theme you will see for the next 6 months is the fact that I am extremely excited about helping Zerocancer.org raise some money to increase awareness for Prostate Cancer at the IM Lake Tahoe. I love that I am getting to do something good while training for such a milestone event in my life. I hope that people will help me make a difference!

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