Project New Year – Day 54, 55, and 56 – Ryan Out

This may not be the post you were expecting to see from me, but here it goes. Seems to be a trend that I don’t blog on the weekends. Lots of stuff happens on the weekends and I just don’t seem to get to it. This weekend it has been especially tough to swallow. Friday I was thankfully busy with the kids and their school activities. They are so awesome! Since I had a Time Trial on Saturday the kids stayed with my parents. My parents and the kids always seem to enjoy their time together. I had some conditioning to take care of, so it all worked out. The time trial went well. Somehow I set a personal best even though I hadn’t eaten anything but Shakeology since Thursday night (2 Shakes on Friday and one Saturday morning before the race). Emotionally I am a wreck. Financially I am nonexistent. But physically somehow I am enduring even though I know at some point if I keep going like this, surely that will fail as well. Even though it may not seem like it on the surface or through my Facebook feed, I have been avoiding something for a while. I have not been taking care of me and there is nothing of me left to give. I am tapped out. I am sorry if I am letting anyone down but I need to stop this charade. I am not happy. I am not doing well.

And I am done putting on that facade. I had every intention of taking this thing through 120 Days and I may very well complete it, but if I do, I am going to do it for me and no one else as it should be. Life is hard. Being a dad is hard. Being a good ex-husband is hard. Being a significant-other is hard. Success is hard. Getting in shape is hard. Staying in shape is hard. Eating healthy is hard. Being accountable is hard. If you can do it and you really want it, anything is possible. But if you don’t take care of yourself and do the things you need to do to provide a stable foundation for yourself and for the people you love and care about, it can all come crumbling down when the balance gets too far off. Unfortunately, sometimes that crash comes a bit too late and everything you have worked for is suddenly gone or just out of reach. I guess that is where I am right now. Starting over from the beginning.

I apologize to everyone I have let down over the past few years. I thought I was doing what I needed to be doing but apparently that was not the case. I don’t blame any of you for jumping ship, not doing the things I may have asked you to do, or even not wanting to be involved in what I was so excited about sharing with you. I get it. I mean the stuff I do really does work. Health and Fitness wise I have never been in better shape. Mentally and Financially I was never ready to let it work as it has worked for so many of my friends and mentors. And that is where I have failed so many of the people who were closest to me. I am somewhere underneath all of the rubble and it is time to start digging my way out.

I am going to take some time away. Not exactly sure what that means yet, but it is my intention to come back strong and ready to help those people that are ready to accept my help and do what it takes to get to where they want to be. I am not giving up. I know it is possible. We just have to be ready to make it happen for ourselves without any reservations. So for now this is my last blog post. I wish you all the Happiest of Holidays and a Wonderful New Year! I hope to see you on the other side……good journey!

Friday, November 21, 2014 – Weigh-in: 173
P90X2 X2 Shoulders + Arms and X2 Ab Ripper and X2 Yoga
Saturday, November 22, 2014 – Weigh-in: 170
12.9 Mile Time Trial and Foam Rolling Recovery
Sunday, November 23, 2014 – Weigh-in: 168
P90X2 X2 Recovery + Mobility

ShakeologyBeachbody WheyBeachbody Fuel ShotSlimming FormulaCordastraEnergy and Endurance FormulaP90X Results & Recovery Formula

Pilates and The Opening Ceremonies, Two Firsts!

P90X3 Day 26 of 90 – Feb. 7, 2014

(Double Day)
Morning Weigh-in:
Breakfast: AcidCheck CapletsActivitSlimming Formula, Cordastra, and Chocolate Vegan Shakeology, Coffee
Workout: Pilates X and CVX added AcidCheck Granules and Pink Himalayan Salt to Water
Post-Workout: P90X Results & Recovery Formula
Lunch: 3 Chicken Tacos Al Carbon, Chips and Salsa
Dinner: Taco, Enchilada, Rice, Beans, Chips, and Salsa
Snack: Too Many Cupcakes and Popcorn

Workout this morning was awesome. I had never attempted a Pilates workout before, but I can say I am pleasantly surprised by the quality of the workout and how it pushed my range of motion. Very cool. CVX right after just put me over the edge for the day. Such a great way to push me out of my comfort zone. I am getting to like these double days. Maybe I am on to something here.

Today was also Daddy Daughter Dance night at my daughter’s school. Such a proud Daddy!
Daddy Daughter Dance 2014

So much fun dancing and eating leftover cupcakes :-). Thanks Mom! 🙂 Just one more reason to keep working out right? We finished the evening off with watching the Opening Ceremonies for the Olympic Games in Sochi. This will be the first Winter Olympics Addison will remember. And of course she fell asleep 🙂 Addison Sleeping


I remember my first Winter Olympics. 1980, Lake Placid, Eric Heiden’s 5 Gold Medals, Team USA’s Miracle on Ice and Gold Medal Finish, Classic Olympics. Sweet Dreams!

Unofficial Day 1 of Olympic Games – Sochi 2014

P90X3 Day 25 of 90 – Feb. 6, 2014

Breakfast: AcidCheck CapletsActivitSlimming Formula, Cordastra, and Chocolate Vegan Shakeology, Coffee
Lunch: Italian Meats Submarine Sandwich, Baked Potato Chips, Mineral Water
Workout: Stretching 30 Minutes
Dinner: Spicy Italian Sausage with Caramelized Onion and Sweet Peppers with Marinara Sauce topped with Mozzarella on a toasted French Roll (1 1/2 Servings)
Snack: Popcorn, Chocolate Chip Cookie and Peanut Butter Sandwich (Rich!) with Milk

The day started out with great news! Falco Bikes has 35 Falco V frames in the queue for paint! Such great news! The Falco V is going to be my bike for the 2014 Triathlon Season and I can’t wait till it gets here to the States in a few weeks!



Next, I found out that the Olympics actually started tonight! I absolutely love the Olympics. Even though the US coverage gets a bit political when we go into countries that have different generally accepted world progressive views like Russia, but overall the tone is set by the athletes. I hope the coverage just gets out what they have to say and then lets it lay as the athletes do what they came to the Olympics to do. There I said it, getting off the soap box. So in celebration of the unofficial start to the Olympic Games, Anna and I made a feast and enjoyed it!

Spicy Italian Sausage

P90X3 Pilates X got postponed and will be part of a Double Workout tomorrow! Definitely a day to work off some extra calories! Wish me luck!

Isometrix and Dynamix

P90X3 Day 22 and 23 of 90 – Feb. 4, 2014

(Double Day)
Morning Weigh-in:
Breakfast: AcidCheck CapletsActivitSlimming Formula, Cordastra, and Chocolate Vegan Shakeology, Coffee
Workout: Isometrix and Dynamix added AcidCheck Granules and Pink Himalayan Salt to Water
Post-Workout: P90X Results & Recovery Formula
Lunch: Turkey and Kale with Swiss on an Herb Ciabatta
Dinner: Shrimp Fajitas, Fiesta Rice, and Pot Beans with Corn Tortillas, Chips, Salsa, and Guacamole
Snack: Root Beer and Chocolate Cookies

I had no idea what I was getting in to this more with Isometrix, all I knew is that it was on the same DVD as Dynamix. Dynamix is a dynamic stretching sequence which I really like. It gets you sweating which is something I never really thought of doing before in a stretching situation, but now it totally makes sense. Stretching should be work, otherwise, you really aren’t stretching. So I thought that Dynamix would be no big deal after doing  the new workout. Wrong. Isometrix was 30 minutes of yoga type static positioning. Wow! That was some serious work then to have dynamic stretching after and still be a little sore from the last double on Saturday. All I can say is, my quads were on fire! They almost hurt as bad as the end of the 4th day skiing at #WhistlerRaid2014

Ryan Whistler


Ahh Whistler……

Anyway, I worked really hard at keeping the nutrition in play today. I even changed what I usually order at my kids’ favorite Mexican Restaurant and went with the Shrimp Fajitas. Super spicy and oh so yummy too! Almost made it, but my sweet tooth got the best of me. Just proves that I am much better off without having the sweets within reach. If I don’t have them in the house, I won’t eat them!

I was a bit alarmed today when my daughter was brought to me riding the back of her Gym Coach in the middle of practice. She slightly pulled her Achilles tendon. No fun for her. At least she didn’t snap the thing. That would have been a little too much to handle :-\ . Just happy that she listened to suggestion after and let it get iced, massaged, and she even spent a little time on the Rumbleroller and her brother joined in too!

Kids on Rumblerollers


Good stuff! I love those kids! Time for me to hit the Rumbleroller myself!

Getting Caught up – A P90X3 Tale

P90X3 Day 15, 16, and 17 of 90 – Jan 28 and 29, 2014

Day 15 and 16 (Double Day)
Morning Weigh-in:
Breakfast: AcidCheck CapletsActivitSlimming Formula, Cordastra, and Chocolate Vegan Shakeology, Coffee
Lunch: Salad with Chicken
Pre-Workout: Energy and Endurance Formula
Workout: Total Synergistics and Agility X added AcidCheck Granules and Pink Himalayan Salt to Water
Post-Workout: P90X Results & Recovery Formula
Dinner: Shared Fajitas and Ceviche, Chips and Salsa

Morning Weigh-in:
Breakfast: AcidCheck CapletsActivitSlimming Formula, Cordastra, and Chocolate Vegan Shakeology, Coffee
Lunch: 4 Carne Asada Tacos (Street Tacos) and a Peanut Butter Granola Bar
Workout: X3 Yoga The Challenge added AcidCheck Granules and Pink Himalayan Salt to Water
Post-Workout: P90X Results & Recovery Formula
Dinner: Shared Fajitas and Ceviche, Chips and Salsa
Dessert: Popcorn

I hadn’t weighed myself in a week, but when I did Tuesday morning I was pleasantly surprised to find that I was down to 168. I guess 4 days of skiing 6 hours a day at  #WhistlerRaid2014 was enough to keep me headed in the right direction. And what an amazing trip it was with so many awesome guys! Friendship, Food, and Fun, but as fun as it was to be with friends and eat amazing food, it was even more awesome to be back with my kiddos. Nothing better than being with them by far! Addison had Gym and Davis had Flag Football after both doing homework. Good times! Talk about an energetic duo! Can’t wait to see them this weekend!

Today was another great day! I weighed in at 168 again and had a fairly good protein lunch! X3 Yoga hit the spot and then it was off for date night at our favorite Mexican Restaurant – El Patio. The Fajitas always hit the spot and the Ceviche is so amazing too!

Glad to be back on the program! Looking forward to expanding the triathlon training next week!


Just wanted you all to know that I am taking a week off of P90X3. IJjust arrived in Whistler, BC for a 6 day ski trip with a great group of Beachbody Coaches. This week will be full of priceless moments that will help me be a better coach, period. I cant wait to get back and work with people who want to make a positive change I need their lives! If you would like to see whats going on, please follow Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter at #WhistlerRaid2014. I’ll be posting a few more times during the trip!

Focus T25 Beta Phase Day 32 of 35 – Dec 12, 2013

Focus T25 Beta Phase Day 32 of 35Dec 12, 2013

It’s been almost a week since I have posted so I thought I would try to catch up on my Accountability Posts. Its been pretty dormant and not prioritized as it should be but somehow I manage to get in the workout at one point or another. Looking forward to this Christmas break has more of my attention and focus preparing more for those vacation days at this point. There will be some much needed family skiing time as well as some personal high altitude training. So in the interest of regurgitating similar daily dietary intake, workout, and daily activities, here is a typical day for the past week:
Morning Weigh-in: 171 Average
Breakfast: AcidCheck Caplets, Activit, Slimming Formula, Cordastra, and Vanilla Shakeology with Cinnamon, Coffee
Pre-Workout: Energy and Endurance Formula
Workout:  Focus T25 (Some Workout) added AcidCheck Granules and Pink Himalayan Salt to Water
Post-Workout: P90X Results & Recovery Formula
Lunch: A Sandwich or a Salad with Chicken
Dinner: Pasta or Pizza, some Meat, something Vegetable,
Desert: Ice Cream or Popsicles or Cookies or Cereal

And thats about it. No cycling, no swimming, no running. Fairly boring, yet highly productive.

This time of year is super busy. School events. Family events. Kids sports. Vacations. You name it! Personally I like the figuring out of what to buy as presents for the different people in my life. Obviously the actual purchase of the gift does not come until December 24th if you are a real man. Thats why my shopping will be done on the 23rd! 😉 No, but seriously, no more procrastination. Time to put waiting aside and get that shopping done. Really. What is the point of waiting until the last minute to do something. If you just get it done you can do the next thing that much quicker. And if the next thing is what you really want to do in the first place, well why the hell aren’t you making it a priority to get that first thing done! Its really as simple as that. Alright now get motivated and go do something you need to do!

Alpine Meadows Vacation Day 4

Today was our last day skiing at Alpine Meadows for this trip. The idea was that my  daughter Addison and my son Davis would start out the day in classes while I got a half day in by myself Then I would meet up with Addison for lunch and take her out for some one on one time while Davis finished out his third full day of lessons. And that is how it happened. The day started out a bit chilly and a bit more windy than yesterday.


But eventually the sun came out and the day warmed up,


but the wind stayed around. Seems like it is always the coldest when you are sitting alone on the chairlift 🙁


Its a good thing that lunch time came and with it daddy-daughter time! I spoke with her instructor and he said that Addison was all ready to make the big jump to the Hot Wheels chair and with it an eventual Intermediate status. So I took her down a couple Beginner slopes first so that she could show me how she could keep her speed in check and make some big “S-turns” she said, “Silly Daddy, you sound like my instructor. Can’t we just go fast?” I told her once she showed me that she could ski in control that we could start going faster. So she showed me and it was time for Hot Wheels!


Addison did awesome. She made it down Weasel a few times and she asked if she could go up Yellow. I said sure! Why not? And so we did and she made it down without falling. Then she wanted to do some jumps and of course I pointed out a few she could launch off. She was so happy, which was infectious and made me a happy Daddy too!

Meanwhile, Davis was making some big strides himself. His instructor said that Davis was his prized pupil for the day.  Making friends with the lift operator,


Helping his classmates up off the snow when they fall,


Or just plain looking like he belongs on the mountain and owning it!


Davis ended the day with his first ride up the Subway chair lift. He was the happiest skier on the hill. This was a huge milestone for him. He has worked so hard over the past three days to get here and believe me I am a very proud Daddy and super excited for him! He is already planning his next trip to Tahoe so he can go skiing again!

So if skiing all day wasn’t enough, both Addison and Davis wanted to go sledding. Who am I to say no. Over to the meadow we went with the sleds. We built a sled run and ran that thing about 40 times before a snowball fight ensued. Kind of one sided, I had all of the snowballs and they provided great targets. Good thing I have horrible aim!


This trip to Tahoe has been wonderful. The kids have enjoyed this time skiing in the snow, making new friends, and spending time with family. It pleases me to see them happy. Tomorrow we head back home to Bakersfield, CA. Back to reality, school for the kids, work and training for me. Even though I will miss being on the skiis, I am looking forward to getting back into the P90X2 workouts, riding my bike, swimming at In-Shape, and finding some time to run as much as I can!

It has been fun sharing this trip with you. I hope you will continue to follow me on my fitness journey and triathlon training regiment. I’ll be mixing in some random articles and recipes and I look forward to sharing with you!

Until next time, enjoy your time with your families, be good to the people you love, and live as if everyday counts in your ability to achieve your goals!

Alpine Meadows Vacation Day 3

Another bluebird day here at Alpine Meadows. Brisk morning, warming up in the afternoon with some wind at the top, nothing debilitating, and the snow conditions were amazing all day! IMAG1497 The kids had another day of lessons and I spent the day getting some turns in. The lines moved pretty fast and I lost count of how many runs I made. Of course I had time to spy on Addison and Davis, took some great little videos, as well as some candid photos. Here is Addison getting off of the lift! IMAG1500 Of course my brother joined up with me in the afternoon and we got to spend some quality time together. IMAG1501IMAG1502 Tomorrow Addison is taking a half day lesson and then we are going to ski in the afternoon together. That time is going to be priceless! Have a good night!

Alpine Meadows Vacation Day 2

Woke up this morning at 4:30 AM. Went back to sleep. Woke up at 6 AM. Still dark. Went Back to sleep. Up at 6:36 the sky started brightening up after that. Jumped in the shower then went to get the kiddos suited up for their first day. Breakfast for me? Chocolate Vegan Shakeology of course, as if I wouldn’t have brought it with me? Ya right! Breakfast for the kids? Cheerios with Horizon Organic Milk! Alright, all funning aside, who am I kidding? Its all about funning. So into the car we piled for our 3 minute commute to the hill. Yeah just a bit spoiled.

So the kids got enrolled in ski school and I headed up to the top for a fresh groomed run.


Then did it again!


Went to take some pics and video of the kiddos!


Then hooked up with my brother for some more runs and some clowning!


The kids had a great time! Addison loved to be back on her skiis and Davis finally got the hang of it and progressed pretty quickly! Back at it tomorrow and Saturday too. Getting the most we can out of this trip…More to follow in the days to come…Time for bed…Nighty-Night!