Project New Year – Day 54, 55, and 56 – Ryan Out

This may not be the post you were expecting to see from me, but here it goes. Seems to be a trend that I don’t blog on the weekends. Lots of stuff happens on the weekends and I just don’t seem to get to it. This weekend it has been especially tough to swallow. Friday I was thankfully busy with the kids and their school activities. They are so awesome! Since I had a Time Trial on Saturday the kids stayed with my parents. My parents and the kids always seem to enjoy their time together. I had some conditioning to take care of, so it all worked out. The time trial went well. Somehow I set a personal best even though I hadn’t eaten anything but Shakeology since Thursday night (2 Shakes on Friday and one Saturday morning before the race). Emotionally I am a wreck. Financially I am nonexistent. But physically somehow I am enduring even though I know at some point if I keep going like this, surely that will fail as well. Even though it may not seem like it on the surface or through my Facebook feed, I have been avoiding something for a while. I have not been taking care of me and there is nothing of me left to give. I am tapped out. I am sorry if I am letting anyone down but I need to stop this charade. I am not happy. I am not doing well.

And I am done putting on that facade. I had every intention of taking this thing through 120 Days and I may very well complete it, but if I do, I am going to do it for me and no one else as it should be. Life is hard. Being a dad is hard. Being a good ex-husband is hard. Being a significant-other is hard. Success is hard. Getting in shape is hard. Staying in shape is hard. Eating healthy is hard. Being accountable is hard. If you can do it and you really want it, anything is possible. But if you don’t take care of yourself and do the things you need to do to provide a stable foundation for yourself and for the people you love and care about, it can all come crumbling down when the balance gets too far off. Unfortunately, sometimes that crash comes a bit too late and everything you have worked for is suddenly gone or just out of reach. I guess that is where I am right now. Starting over from the beginning.

I apologize to everyone I have let down over the past few years. I thought I was doing what I needed to be doing but apparently that was not the case. I don’t blame any of you for jumping ship, not doing the things I may have asked you to do, or even not wanting to be involved in what I was so excited about sharing with you. I get it. I mean the stuff I do really does work. Health and Fitness wise I have never been in better shape. Mentally and Financially I was never ready to let it work as it has worked for so many of my friends and mentors. And that is where I have failed so many of the people who were closest to me. I am somewhere underneath all of the rubble and it is time to start digging my way out.

I am going to take some time away. Not exactly sure what that means yet, but it is my intention to come back strong and ready to help those people that are ready to accept my help and do what it takes to get to where they want to be. I am not giving up. I know it is possible. We just have to be ready to make it happen for ourselves without any reservations. So for now this is my last blog post. I wish you all the Happiest of Holidays and a Wonderful New Year! I hope to see you on the other side……good journey!

Training:
Friday, November 21, 2014 – Weigh-in: 173
P90X2 X2 Shoulders + Arms and X2 Ab Ripper and X2 Yoga
Saturday, November 22, 2014 – Weigh-in: 170
12.9 Mile Time Trial and Foam Rolling Recovery
Sunday, November 23, 2014 – Weigh-in: 168
P90X2 X2 Recovery + Mobility

Supplements:
ShakeologyBeachbody WheyBeachbody Fuel ShotSlimming FormulaCordastraEnergy and Endurance FormulaP90X Results & Recovery Formula

Walking Wednesday followed by a Therapeutic Thursday Morning

Yesterday I was sore from Tuesday night’s race. I had a weird knee twinge which usually means something was tight and I didn’t stretch enough! Happy that it was Walking Wednesday and we were able to go have a Yummy Fajitas Adventure! The walking helped warm up the leg for sure, but it was the hour on the Rumbleroller and finding the hot spot at my left adductor that got rid of the twinge right away. I have been struggling with hip flexor, quadriceps, hamstring, gluteus, soleus, and calve flexibility lately. (Missing my weekly P90X Yoga) All of those muscles, and some others I have not mentioned, can attribute to knee pain. But just because something hurts doesn’t mean that I am injured right? Its if I continue to push those muscles without working on flexibility that ultimately leads to an injury. It was so awesome to feel the pain go away last night as I rolled my inner thigh on the Rumbleroller, it hurt like a son of a gun, but the result was so worth it! I am sure I’ll be revisiting the Rumbleroller and stretching more this evening as well.

After staying up as long as I could last night to watch Fallon (my Tonight Show Vice) I finally had to turn off the TV and go to sleep. I confirmed that I would be joining some guys for a 6 AM ride. Yeah, 5 am came early. Hit the snooze button 2 times. Rolled out of bed. Filled the water bottle. Aired the tires. Oh yeah, got dressed. Headed out the door at a deliberately slow pace while drinking my E&E. Arrived 5 minutes late :-\ Sorry! Luckily Brock and Aaron are cool and waited for me. Mike got an early morning flat and couldn’t make it. So the three of us went off on our ride up around the Panorama Bluffs. On our way back we were moving but it didn’t seem like we were going that hard. I could tell my legs were searching for fuel. Aaron and Brock were putting in some strong pulls. We all rotated to the front, taking turns, to keep the momentum going. And it paid off! Each of us got a piece of the KOM when we were through.
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Great ride this morning and what a great way to get the blood flowing for the rest of the day!

Now I am starving! Bring on Lunch!

Triathlon Training Log

Wednesday, May 21, 2014
Morning Weigh-in:
 171
Breakfast: 3 – AcidCheck Caplets2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra2 –  Vector450, and Chocolate Shakeology
Lunch: BBQ Chicken Primo Salad and Water
Workout: Walking Wednesday
Dinner: Fajitas, Beans, Rice, Corn Tortillas, Ceviche, Chips, Salsa, Guacamole
Recovery: 1 Hour Rumbleroller 
Midnight Snack: Chocolate Shakeology with Almond Milk and an Organic Peanut Butter Sandwich (Calories for 6AM Ride)

Thursday, May 22, 2014
Morning Weigh-in: 174
Pre-Workout: Energy and Endurance Formula
Workout: Cycling 31.7 Miles added AcidCheck Granules and Pink Himalayan Salt to Water
Weigh-in: 171
Post-Workout: P90X Results & Recovery Formula
Breakfast: 3 – AcidCheck Caplets2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra2 –  Vector450, and Chocolate Shakeology

Stay tuned for Saturday the 24th’s Post Time Trial Blog Entry!

Tuesday Night World Championship #1

Pretty neat day! My daughter received some awards at school for meeting her AR (Accelerated Reader) Goal as well as a certificate for Mathematics. Headed into the office to get a few things done and then it was off to get the kiddos for our Tuesday. The kiddos played at home while I cleaned the drive train on my Falco V to get it ready for the Tuesday Night World Championship. We all piled in the car and headed up to my parent’s house. The kids went swimming and I stretched. I kissed them both and headed off to warmup for the start!

The race was crazy! The wind was whipping around up on the Bakersfield bluffs and with my bike set up the way it is (high profile wheels) I was a bit hesitant to gun it down the first descent. I started to get passed and then was completely dropped off the back as we began the first hill. The peloton left me in the dust. Not necessarily where I want to be, but it was probably the safest position for me to be in with all of the wind. So I just put my head down and ground it out to try and catch the group. I finally caught up with everyone about 8 miles into the ride. We had a lead group of 4 for a couple miles then I got dropped again. I caught back up with one of my friends Zach Griffin at about Mile 18 and we ended up working together for the next 6.5 Miles down Rattlesnake, through Hart Park to Goodmanville Rd. before we caught up to Jim Pappe, and then these hill climbers took off again and left me alone in 4th position through to the end. Luckily this is about the time my family caught up to me and began cheering giving me one last burst of energy to finish the race out strong. Unfortunate side note: The rider who was in first place for most of the ride cut off the course with about 20 meters to go and bowed out of the podium spot. So looks like I placed third! Wasn’t pretty, but I’ll take it! Looking forward to the next race!

Triathlon Training Log – May 20, 2014
Morning Weigh-in:
 172
Breakfast: 3 – AcidCheck Caplets2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra2 –  Vector450, and Chocolate Shakeology
Lunch: Bean and Rice Burrito, Water
Pre-Workout: 1 Hour Stretching and Energy and Endurance Formula
Workout: Cycling 27.9 Miles added AcidCheck Granules and Pink Himalayan Salt to Water 
Post-Workout:
 P90X Results & Recovery Formula 
Dinner: Pork Chop, Half a Baked Sweet Potato, Half an Ear of Corn, Taco Salad
Dessert: Chocolate Shakeology with Almond Milk and a Lime Popsicle
Snack: Organic Peanut Butter Sandwich

Working on the nutrition!

Tony and the Kids

This past weekend, I’m not going to lie, was pretty freaking amazing. My parents, kids, and I, along with a huge group of friends, colleagues, and fellow health and fitness enthusiasts, spent our Saturday at Cal State University of Bakersfield with Tony Horton. I think my kids, 7 years and 5 years old may have enjoyed it more than me! They have seen Tony on the TV screen over the past few years with my P90X, X2, and X3. They even have their own Tony and the Kids workout. My parents got in on the fun too! They have been working with Tony and the Folks and love it too! 20140517_135800 IMG_20140518_095427 Beyond the physical workout we all got to enjoy, the messages that Tony had to share I felt were more what I needed to hear. Especially when it comes to nutrition. I know that I let my physical activities give me an excuse to eat whatever I want over the past year. The problem is I know that eating fatty, salty, sugary, fried, foods isn’t good for me, but what is more important is that it is not properly fueling my body based on it’s demand. How can I expect to continually get better as an athlete if I am not fueling the body optimally, right? In fact, I have actually been setting myself up for injury. Luckily, the supplements I take have been carrying me through these moments of nutritional weakness. However with the addition of the 2014 Ironman Lake Tahoe goal, the supplements and a 60% / Clean 40% Dirty Eating rule just isn’t going to cut it. I can’t afford to get injured more than I already am hindered by this nagging left side tightness (which I am addressing with a Spring Stretch Challenge Group on Facebook). Flexibility is a key component of fitness. Flexible is something that I have never been. I know that it is going to be a painful journey, but I need to be flexible and know that it will open up a whole other level of fitness and health. Sunday I spent the day with the kids swimming and playing games. Kind of a Recovery Day of sorts. Much needed. Met the new puppy! IMG_20140518_115622 Today was a good day all around. Davis and I spent a little time in the morning together. I got in a quick swim, spent lunch with Addison at her classroom birthday party, got in some time at the office, hit the bike trail for a hot and windy ride, dinner with the girls, and a dog walk. Looks like the puppy is staying. The girls named her Scout after Scout in To Kill A Mockingbird, after briefly being named, Ginger, Bella, Lola, Sasha, and maybe a few others. The remainder of this week I will be focusing on stretching, eating better, and getting better sleep…oh yes…and riding my Falco V! Group Race/Ride tomorrow night and a Time Trial this weekend!

Triathlon Training Log – May 17-19, 2014

Saturday, May 17, 2014
Morning Weigh-in:
 171
Breakfast:  3 – AcidCheck Caplets, 2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra2 –  Vector450, and Chocolate Shakeology
Snack:
Protein Bar, PowerBar
Lunch:
 Chicken Terriyaki, Noodles
Workout: 30 Mins Ultimate Warrior with Tony Horton
Dinner: Pepperoni pizza and Potato Wedges
Snack: Ice Cream Sandwiches and Popcorn

Sunday, May 18, 2014
Morning Weigh-in:
 173
Breakfast:  3 – AcidCheck Caplets, 2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra2 –  Vector450, and Chocolate Shakeology
Lunch: Turkey Sandwich and Potato Chips
Workout: 5 Mins on BOWSWIM
Dinner: Penne Pasta with Chicken and Broccoli in an Alfredo Sauce
Snack: Bag of Popcorn and a Lime Popsicle

Monday, May 19, 2014
Morning Weigh-in:
 172
Breakfast: 3 – AcidCheck Caplets2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra2 –  Vector450, and Chocolate Shakeology
Workout:
Lunch: Pizza, 2 Cupcakes
Pre-Workout: Energy and Endurance Formula
Workout: Cycling 18.7 Miles added AcidCheck Granules and Pink Himalayan Salt to Water
Post-Workout:
 P90X Results & Recovery Formula
Dinner: Steak Fajitas and Spanish Rice, 1/2 Pulled Pork Sandwich
Dessert: Bag of Popcorn and a Lime Popsicle
Snack: Turkey Sandwich

Friday FunFest!

May 16, 2014 started out with an early visit to Bakersfield High School. I was honored to deliver the 1000+ Hot Dogs and Bags of Chips to Fun Fest. Fun Fest is a Carnival for all of the Special Needs kids from the feeder Elementary Schools to BHS. Seriously a fun event. The high school students get to have buddies and do carnival games. A dunk tank, jump houses, ring toss, face paint, and everything else you can think of that belongs at a carnival. Yes cotton candy too 😉 The kids look forward to it all year long and the excitement you see on their faces will warm you for a lifetime. I can’t wait till next year!

After a day at the office I got out for a ride and headed up to my parents house. The kids are having a sleepover with Grandma and Papa, but I had to see them. They were swimming when I got there so I got to join in the fun! It’s so nice to ride in a TriSuit! I just took off my cycling shoes and jumped in! Got to play with the kids for a bit but it was getting dark and I had to go chase the sun home.

Capped the night off with watching the Veronica Mars movie with the girls! Good Movie! Great use of kickstarter.com!

Triathlon Training Log
Morning Weigh-in: 170
Breakfast:  3 – AcidCheck Caplets, 2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra2 –  Vector450, and Chocolate Shakeology
Lunch: 2 Bean and Cheese Burritos, 2 Chicken Tacos
Pre-Workout: Energy and Endurance Formula
Workout: Cycling 13.3 Miles, Cycling 3.3 Miles, Swim with Kids, Cycling 9.7 Miles added AcidCheck Granules and Pink Himalayan Salt to water
Workout: P90X Results & Recovery Formula
Dinner: Chicken Fajita Burrito, Chips and Guacamole
Snack: Lime Popsicle, Cliff Bar, Chocolate Shakeology added AcidCheck Granules and Pink Himalayan Salt

Busy Day – A Little BowSwim Perhaps?

Triathlon Training Log – May 15, 2014

Morning Weigh-in: 171
Breakfast:  3 – AcidCheck Caplets, 2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra2 –  Vector450, and Chocolate Shakeology
Lunch:
 Charbroiled Chicken Club Sandwich, Water
Workout: 5 Minute Swim on BowSwim
Dinner: 2 Protein Bars, Water
Dessert: Root Beer Freeze
Snack: Handful of Chocolate, Bag of Popcorn, Tall Glass of Orange Juice

Busy, busy day. Work. Errands. Kids’ Open House. Kid’s Choir Performance. Sleep. Had just enough time to jump on the BowSwim for a super quick swim somewhere in the middle of all of that. Not much of a workout, but it got my blood moving a bit. Hoping that tomorrow brings something in the way of a real workout! And after looking at my accountability, I just realized why I was so hungry; I barely ate yesterday. I need to do better on nutrition. Not that I need to lose weight or anything (my weight fluctuates between races), but if I was looking to lean out, starving myself would not be the way to do it. And doing it too many days in a row will start to have the opposite effect. A body in starvation mode will convert calories into fat. And that is not what anyone wants to do. Good thing I didn’t really workout yesterday! 😉

 

Back in Alignment

Triathlon Training Log – May 14, 2014

Morning Weigh-in: 172
Breakfast:  3 – AcidCheck Caplets, 2 – Slimming Formula, 2 – Cordastra2 –  Vector450, and Chocolate Shakeology
Lunch:
 BBQ Chicken Pizza with Gluten Free Dough, Dessert Bar (Caramel, and Chocolate on Shortbread)
Recovery: Chiropractic Adjustment with 1/2 Hour Rest
Pre-Workout: Energy and Endurance Formula
Workout: Cycling 19 Miles added AcidCheck Granules and Pink Himalayan Salt to Water
Post-Workout: P90X Results & Recovery Formula
Dinner: Chicken Burrito, Chips and Guacamole
Recovery: Foam Rolling 1 Hour
Snack: Handful of Chocolate and a Lime Popsicle

Took off Tuesday from training. I am thinking that Tuesday may start to be my rest day from now on. Today I couldn’t take it any longer and went in to see the Chiropractor about the pain in my left leg. I have tried rest, stretching, and myofascial release with no success. These past two months have been painful, labored, and somewhat depressing to say the least. When your body is out of whack and you can’t perform as well as you would like, it tends to bum you out. It turns out that I was way out of alignment and all I needed was a good adjustment. I immediately felt relief which in turn made me sleepy. (I have not been sleeping well for the past few months) Its amazing how something like skeletal alignment can affect your activities of daily living. After a quick nap, I was ready to go for a bike ride. I felt so much more comfortable and even though the wind was blowing pretty good and the triple digit heat was sizzling, I put down a decent workout! Looking forward to seeing what else I am able to achieve with my rejuvenation!